Crying

My stomach tightens my eyes fill with tears, my head starts to spin I'm overcome by fear.
All logic is gone I become numb, what do I do? What did I do wrong?
My mind is clouded with fear and doubt, as I go through this mental drought.
I try to be strong, I try not to worry, I try to smile but the pain takes over me.  
Standing alone in this house crying so hard no noise comes out.
I get down on my knees praying to God He takes this pain from me.